I was always a happy person always lost in my thoughts always had my head in the clouds. Until one day the sky started falling and I had to face reality. I got really depressed in sixth and seventh grade I was getting bullied my home life was falling apart and I felt like I was spiraling out of control. I felt like I had no control over any part of my life! So I found something I had control over it was pain! I could inflict pain and feel that I had control! I had always been in a Christian school and a good girl so I learned how to make everything look like it was okay say my prayers at night praise at church but go home feeling just as mentally lost as where I started! I began to think if God is always here for me why do I feel like this. Then I began to look in my Bible and I found this scripture. You must not fear, for I am with you; you must not be afraid, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, indeed I will help you, indeed I will take hold of you with the right hand of my salvation. (Isaiah 41:10 LEB) That scripture gave me hope! I was lost I was confused! I was not only mentally confused I was spiritually confused! I got on my knees and gave my life to Christ and to this day I can say I haven’t picked up a blade since!